Age is an odd thing, especially in this day and age. With information flowing at a staggering pace, it is now possible to live many different unconnected lives and experiences in quite a short amount of time. Contrast this with youth today who only think that they’ve lived it all. But old timers have been saying that since age was discovered I guess.

I don’t think I’ve done as much as a lot of people in my lifetime, but I have done quite a lot of really interesting and fun things, including quite a few unrelated community ecosystems, which are worlds unto themselves and an entire blog in the making.

In the late 80s I took up guitar again and wrote a lot of music. I also spent a lot of time in recording studios in the early 90s and hacking away on 4 track recorders at home throughout much of the 90s. Its really interesting looking back on some of those songs, revisiting moments in history, because I’m so in a different place right now.

Here’s a couple of things I was listening to tonight. I was in the combined schools choir in school in the upper registers, but fell in love with punk and spent the next 30 years trying to sing badly, something that’s unfortunately set me back in recent years, but that’s another story. Strangely my music usually wasn’t punk.

I wrote Out to you (3.4MB) at a time when my world seemed to be crumbling around me, I still don’t know why, but I still remember who. Never really one for lyrical subtext, this was written for my best friend at the time, and who has been ever since. It must have been written around 1994 or so, but this is a dodgey 2 track from 22nd June 1996, strangely using a Radio Shack PZM.

Rigor mortis (3.8MB) was written in 1991 while learning my way around Cubase. The vox samples are from the Australian film Bodywork. The instruments are all from a couple of Yamaha and AKAI samplers, I can’t remember which.

I’ll find our way home (3.4MB) is another dodgey 2 track with PZM, coincidentally recorded on the 23rd June 1996, but written probably around 1987-1988 or so. It’s my favourite of all my songs, mainly because it had the most emotional impact at the time. Yes, it was for a girl. I don’t really have a good recording of it unfortunately. The guitar is an old 12 string with only 6 strings and rattling tuning pegs. I still have the guitar, I don’t have the girl.

Giddy was written and recorded on 11th February 1997 as a one off attempt to do a Gerling song. That was before they stopped being a rock band. Not particularly successful, but I like the recording.

And finally No place (3MB) is a silly little sampler piece from 2007. I was trying out Apple’s GarageBand software to see how easy it was to use. It didn’t seem that much easier than a professional sequencer, but not bad for 30 minutes of hacking around.

Apart from the last one, they all seem a lifetime away, almost unreal. Almost like I simply manufactured the memories. I guess because it wasn’t really me, it was a different me, the angst ridden me.